傻瓜闲谈记

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Zheng：郑中熙
Nick ：池松盛

以下是某次在MSN中的对话。

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Zheng says:
hi
Nick says:
hi~
Zheng says:
its very hard to reach you, this days, maybe you are working hard secretly in poetry, politics, economy and fate.
Nick says:
oo
Zheng says:
i hav O-level this year.
Nick says:
wow
Zheng says:
equivalent to your SPM.
Nick says:
so~fast
Zheng says:
becaz here in Singapore secondary only has 4 years.
Nick says:
lolx~sienz~
Zheng says:
compare to Malaysia, 5 years. So how is Chong Hwa?
Nick says:
dunno how to say
Zheng says:
and want to know my new cellphone number?
Nick says:
depends on u how to see
lolx~become rich liaoz?
Zheng says:
kk , i am planning to go back. i am always generous.
81661362
you just gonna type 0065 then....the international number
you know Raffles institution?
Nick says:
dunno. who is raffles?
Zheng says:
this is the best secondary school in Singapore and I am studying in it
so nice
Nick says:
so how?
Zheng says:
the school surface is 3 times bigger then CHwa, not easy to get in
but I am very free if compare to you, you have to self-tuition, but I don't
how r you getting this days?
Nick says:
i didn't have tuition, yeah~lolx~
monday buddhist society, wednesday n friday tae kwan do
other day prepared general knowledge team
Zheng says:
but i have to get at least 3 marks in O-level to remain my study in Raffles Junior College
You know what I mean by 3 marks and Raffles Junior College?
Nick says:
0.0~dunno
Zheng says:
but I am studying for Diploma for piano, Tues and Fri learn one foreign language
Nick says:
so u're able to speak which languages?
Zheng says:
Raffles junior College is like College to Malaysia, after two years preparing , you get A-level, then university.
well, in O-level, you can prepare 6-9 subjects, and you must have 6A1 at least only you get 6 marks, but Raffles Junior College need 3 marks at least, as you have to use your bonus point, you can only get your bonus point if your are good in Music, Arts ,ECA, Sports, or have a A1-A2 in your higher mother tongue language subject
Nick says:
0.0
Zheng says:
learning French
then you
I have to participate at football also
but I can rest , becaz Sat and Sun is holiday, haha
Nick says:
lolx~u know i have thought that i should stop schoolin' for sometimes
goin' for my poetry and chinese and anything about chinese
Zheng says:
why dont you come study with me? I am alone and no girls
Nick says:
we study for becomin' a study machine?
or study for what?
become the cleverest in world?
Zheng says:
I will tell you now
Nick says:
that no mistake in life?
i would not like to have this kinds of life
Zheng says:
will you giv me some 2 minutes to be lecturer ?
Nick says:
okay~for sure
Zheng says:
after I transfer to this school, only that I feel that Chong Hwa's life is very miserable , and lonely, the ECA teacher are not pro and the students are too many but the school teacher weren't good enough, even some only graduated frm higher sec school only. CHwa is a school which only provide spaces to students to become exam machine, and the student's discipline were bad, and 校风 is descendi
you know
Nick says:
anyway, u look for a good education, but i'm not. i just want to learn the knowledge that i gonna use it, but not the things of school can gimme
i finish 史记，三国志~school want us study or not?
no
is that can help u improve ur marks?
no
Zheng says:
this school, one class cannot over 25 students and above, we can communicate very well and to spare our feelings with teachers, the campus is large, many courts and swimming pool plus the teacher's here are too pro and nice, they dont just teach lessons, but to educate ones moral values and to teach talened students plus pioneer(领导)
Nick says:
although i can write poem that i like, and enjoy my life like a persona
but social can't give what we want
学以致用~yeah~
ur school is better than here
but
u thought anyone can effort these?
i just want to said, why the people always look someone's result or wealth or anything
does'nt human live for happy?
even though u thought u r more successful than us in chonghwa that looks like exam machine
but, what u want?
Zheng says:
your have to got a good and high certificate first, then only you can survive in this social, even if you are talented in poems, you can do nothing, first I propose tha you must have your examinations doing good, later go to A good university, then only you can have your 知己, and talk and discuss about your 史记 , and 三国志
Nick says:
success is ur happy?
why we must live for others?
if they're stupid
then we must act the stupid looks to them?
Zheng says:
yes, even if you want to success
Nick says:
what's success
what's the use for u?
Zheng says:
I mean your succes , you target
Nick says:
what's ur target?
Zheng says:
see, this school, have many talented students, in sports, pianos, musics, and poetry makers
you sure want to know?
Nick says:
yeah, talented and talented
Zheng says:
so you can talk and communicate with those TALENTED, and to be one of their 知音
Nick says:
why we must to be one of them?
i'm not encourage to be a recluse
but i just want to tell everyone, what're the truth we lookin' for?
become like bill gates?
bcome like obama?
Zheng says:
you can be your own, but I mean you at least find someone to be like you , in your hobbies or ambition, then you can at least to improve and to be not alone
Nick says:
we improve our skill for communicate with others?
to be not alone?
our ambition depends on what?
Zheng says:
everyone has his ambition and target, you have it yours , and I have it mine, we all want to get it, reach it, not to dream it, so, the only shortest way is to get them from the social directly
Nick says:
why?
get it for what?
for other?
Zheng says:
not for others
but for your own
Nick says:
for show off to others that are not wealthy or no education high like us?
Zheng says:
see, i got an example, I definitely love piano like you to your poem, but if I just concentrate on my piano, I can have what I want and owns My grades, and ZHI YIN and to know what to do later, but I cant, I have many to care, the social improvements, my parentds, my earth?
Nick says:
so u are tryin' to 美化 ur 外表
but not ur 心灵
Zheng says:
I have the only way to fiht through machine then to be better then them, and to get more information , to get 知音 and to have my loves
it is not 美化外表, but to have your responsibility towards your living, this is a obligation (义务) not choice, jus like to eat to pee
Nick says:
to be better than them, for what? to get more information, for what? to get 知音 and ur love through these?
when you're nothing, then they're not be ur friend again or ur love
so this what's u call 知音?
who give u this responsibility?
who told u have to do like what their said?
or what their want?
爱人，不管你在什么时候，都会是你的爱人，就好象你的知音，亦然
透过虚幻的技巧，所谓的学识，技能，来得到的爱情和他人对你的友好
这，是“真”吗？
Zheng says:
and I am a very ambitious man , human ,this is the social which made, they laugh at me during I slip, they redicule me when I done somethiing silly, I have to prove to proveto prove that my fate isnt to be like this , my faith, my destiny, my self is nt to be that way, and onlythrough this way tha they will learn something from me, and younger will gain my experiences
Nick says:
当上一代误导了下一代，下一代又间接地规划自己的理想，让下一代去继续
当大家做错误的事时，不一样的理念传输在大家幼稚的心灵，潜移默化之下，也随着和稀泥
Zheng says:
I have to tell you that these peaople that you said are just the force to pushe you up and meet the higher standard level human heings, you know, they are just like pasr lady talk well to you when you buysomthin, but scold you when you ask for food
Nick says:
当大家都说事业有成，有一门技能能在社会立足，大家就说那人成功了
成功的定义是什么？
难道这就是所谓的成功？
Zheng says:
I mean 知音 not to be like Chong Hwa's students, but to like my school, or later in higher standard
Nick says:
当你死的时候，真正为“你”的
才是知音吧
如果是为了你的“成功”而伤心或什么的时候
那也算知音吗！？
如果有朝一日，人类的思想又转变的时候，现在的“成功”又会成为未来的什么呢？
Zheng says:
you know this becaz you are like me, when I leave Chong Hwa, leave my previous surrounding, becaz I 压抑, and boredom
Nick says:
思考“我”的定义，不是“我的定义”
什么是我？
什么是他？
Zheng says:
everyone in this living, wants to NU ZHUAN QIAN KUN, but it is just their destiny to have teir results
understand?
Nick says:
destiny?
其他人都帮某个人规划他的"destiny"
Zheng says:
and pls dont be so pessimist, you have your destiny, and fate too
Nick says:
那个人也认为他的"destiny"应该是这样
事业有成，家庭美满，学识渊博，就是成功吗？
当你什么都不是时，这些还是你需要的吗？
Zheng says:
this is what i mean by trying to avoid from itself's destiny and fate
do you want me to tell you a truth?
Nick says:
可是，事实上，当你真正明白的时候，应该是在什么地方，什么时候，什么世界，都是如一的信念
Zheng says:
this is victory, but just to make social to have nothing to you, but to pro vide freedom
Nick says:
你以为在越高级的校园，越有水准的地方，你才能快乐
Zheng says:
it is some disbelief between me and teacher cheng yu ling
Nick says:
不管你在哪里，快乐就行了，何必强求这里，或那里呢 ？
如果你在这里，却会变得和那里不一样
你是“你”，还是你呢 ？
Zheng says:
you are correct, for example, why so many people want to go for Buddhism, they want to have the happy, but if they reachthat, willthey still be happy, NO, they wont, thats why 佛法 no limits
Nick says:
你是追求无求无欲呢？还是无求无欲啊？
有佛法吗？
真的有吗？
我们生来如是，怎么死来就不是？
Zheng says:
if you say that you are happy to make a fantastic poem, you are wrong, becaz when you see a real poem you will want to amke it your target
Nick says:
我们写诗是为了人家吗？
不是为了自己吗？
难道一定要把这称之为才能？
Zheng says:
actually, to my understanding, it exists, it absorb the attraction of those miserable to provide them love and happy, but if they reached, they wont feel that they have got it, becaz there is a larger love infront of them
yes thatds is why so many art come later then artists
Nick says:
为了吸引？
为了价值？
Zheng says:
not at all, its is for the destiny
Nick says:
but u mean to learn for improve urself
Zheng says:
and I have it all here
in Raffles
Nick says:
anyplace u are, u have all of it, but not in"raffles"
Zheng says:
see, when you think that it is very bad to stay in your surrouding , then you should think of your ways
Nick says:
难道说，不在这里，你就不是那个你了？
Zheng says:
not, you know why I said it is in Raffles
Nick says:
若你不曾在raffles,你就不是你了？
Zheng says:
becaz R provide a freedom, space , great that I can never think of it in CHwa
you are wrong again
Nick says:
原来不是你
Zheng says:
if I werent in Raffles, I would be me , but not the some characteristics and feelings
I mean same
Nick says:
所以你还是一样，不是你
Zheng says:
why?
why not me?
Nick says:
此你非彼你
慢慢斟酌吧~
Zheng says:
the soul fesh destiny are all same, but one can have just one fate, so i could be different, but i am currently the same
Nick says:
所以你还是说你不是你啊
只是是你啊
Zheng says:
you are too 悲观 and too 压抑 becaz of your surrounding, you should feel relived and the only ways to share, CHANGWE( becaz I found that you are still the same SSang, I met in CHwa)
Nick says:
我本来是我，又何来有他我之说呢 ？
呵呵
Zheng says:
you would understand one day my words
Nick says:
悲观，压抑
哈哈
Zheng says:
yes
Nick says:
既然我就是我了，我不是悲观，我不是压抑
Zheng says:
you are
Nick says:
那我是悲观压抑，不是我了咯
哈哈